The Ultimate Relationship

I wish I could express to you the joy that comes from knowing Christ (Eph 3:17-19). As the anxieties and cares of life mount our hearts, we reach the summit feeling discouraged and exhausted. In those moments I've learned to turn to Him and seek His Fatherly counsel. As the Fatherly relationship has grown, my heart has been healing (Is. 61:3). He's bound my wounds, poured healing ointment into them and when need be, redresses them. Sometimes old wounds resurface. When they resurface we bring them back to Him. We ask Him to heal them once again. The beauty is we can continue to bring them to Him and He'll patiently heal. It's from the healing, the love and tender care of our beautiful Gardner that we learn it's possible to love others. Yes, we can marry and stay married. Yes, we can raise godly children. Yes, I can love that earthly father who seems so silly at times. What we can do with Christ is endless.

God Puts the Solitary in Families

As the train jostled me through northern New Jersey and paused at Penn station, my heart was humming; I was heading North to the land that I love. I know I've arrived in New England because the landscape begins to turn different shades of grey and blue. While living there, the lack of color on houses depressed me but upon my return, it was exhilarating. New England juts into a sapphire-grey ocean, has skies blended with periwinkle and grey and is filled with a demur, reserved people whose manners mark the landscape.

I was heading to Boston, the grand lady ensconced in grey and bejeweled with pearls. It's a beautiful thing to be able to pause in life sometimes; to take in your surroundings, mull over the past and wonder over the present. Every time I arrive in Boston I feel her magic. She massages my mental urge to constantly think and helps me to reflect on life's occurrences with serenity. Pause I did. So much has happened in a sliver of time. I chose my mother's headstone, decided to save enough money to move out and gave way to admitting what I truly want. Making life decisions can be hard but I'm learning to put my small lily white hand in my Heavenly Father's large, unchanging one. For most of my life I craved the sense of belonging to a family. I felt isolated as an only child and so alone. After losing my mother, I felt myself slipping further into isolation and wondering how I'd ever get out. What's the solution to loneliness and was I meant to feel utterly alone forever?

Through all the questions I clung to one hope, the scripture that states "God puts the solitary in families". A father of the fatherless and a judge for the widows, Is God in His holy habitation. 6 God makes a home for the lonely; He leads out the prisoners into prosperity, Only the rebellious dwell in a parched land. Psalms 68