As my love life quickly unravels in 2010 and I'm ever marching towards my 30s, I've decided to take absolute and complete control of my life - all of it. 2010 will be the year of male detox, adventure and self-discovery. For the time-being I'm going to archive my desire for relationship/marriage and instead focus on some "itty bitty" stuff that's been hedging me in all these years. Some of it's getting to be a real drag. Where's all this coming from you ask?
Remember that lawyer who lent me "Catch-22"? Well, we dated for 3 months and he promptly dumped me. How'd he dump me is the question? When he refused to care at all for my safety and I refused to go along with it, he marched out my car and I haven't spoken to him since. The story isn't that interesting but it is a repeat tragedy of men who think nothing of abusing, forsaking or even better - ignoring me. I've decided it's time for me to GET A LIFE and stop repeating the same old patterns. The area of people ignoring me, taking advantage of me and disrespecting me is boiling all around me. I have friends, a parent and past boyfriends all cobbling together to win the "I'm the most selfish person of the year" award.
I'm not doing this without a support system. In my quest to finding eternal love, I lost the one I had - that with Jesus. We've known each other for 28 years now and somehow I forgot how important he is to me. He is first. There's no compromise. I accidentally headed the comments of well-meaning friends and family who told me a religious man doesn't exist, or I'm too picky. That's bad advice. A man of values, manners and who's still interesting exists. Only this time I'm not going to find him. He'll find me as I'm living my life to the fullest, serving God the best way I know how and teaching others the same. It's time to lean on Christ, keep the secret place of prayer, healing and ultimate salvation. It's time to die to myself and live for Him. This will mean something new for me - being authentic to my beliefs not only inwardly but outwardly. It means living it regardless of the consequences. Through the years my beliefs have cost me...but "He is no fool to lose what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose" ~ Jim Elliot.
Funny thing...I think that slashing off my dreams and letting them float away will actually bring them round again. Let's let go of the dreams for now (b/c they're idols) and grasp hold of spiritual blessings and work towards what's practical.
Let's get started. Join me on the journey if you dare. We'll go day-by-day, delve into prayer, Biblical scriptures and supporting books. I'll sort it all out, talk it out to others and keep it ever before Christ. Happy new decade and happy new me!
GOAL SETTING:
Intellectual Goals:
Order the following used books from Amazon.com:
All The Rules by Ellen Fein & Sherrie Schneider
Remember that lawyer who lent me "Catch-22"? Well, we dated for 3 months and he promptly dumped me. How'd he dump me is the question? When he refused to care at all for my safety and I refused to go along with it, he marched out my car and I haven't spoken to him since. The story isn't that interesting but it is a repeat tragedy of men who think nothing of abusing, forsaking or even better - ignoring me. I've decided it's time for me to GET A LIFE and stop repeating the same old patterns. The area of people ignoring me, taking advantage of me and disrespecting me is boiling all around me. I have friends, a parent and past boyfriends all cobbling together to win the "I'm the most selfish person of the year" award.
I'm not doing this without a support system. In my quest to finding eternal love, I lost the one I had - that with Jesus. We've known each other for 28 years now and somehow I forgot how important he is to me. He is first. There's no compromise. I accidentally headed the comments of well-meaning friends and family who told me a religious man doesn't exist, or I'm too picky. That's bad advice. A man of values, manners and who's still interesting exists. Only this time I'm not going to find him. He'll find me as I'm living my life to the fullest, serving God the best way I know how and teaching others the same. It's time to lean on Christ, keep the secret place of prayer, healing and ultimate salvation. It's time to die to myself and live for Him. This will mean something new for me - being authentic to my beliefs not only inwardly but outwardly. It means living it regardless of the consequences. Through the years my beliefs have cost me...but "He is no fool to lose what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose" ~ Jim Elliot.
Funny thing...I think that slashing off my dreams and letting them float away will actually bring them round again. Let's let go of the dreams for now (b/c they're idols) and grasp hold of spiritual blessings and work towards what's practical.
Let's get started. Join me on the journey if you dare. We'll go day-by-day, delve into prayer, Biblical scriptures and supporting books. I'll sort it all out, talk it out to others and keep it ever before Christ. Happy new decade and happy new me!
GOAL SETTING:
Intellectual Goals:
Order the following used books from Amazon.com:
All The Rules by Ellen Fein & Sherrie Schneider
How to Get a Date Worth Keeping by Dr. Henry Cloud Become Your Own Matchmaker by Patti Stranger
Research alternate career paths including requd education
Continue to work full steam ahead on my career at the Firm
Compile & Review articles on Small Talk
Follow current events (including politics, television, movies etc)
Practice:
Join NJ Young Professionals & start going out!
Physical Goals:
Get on a no miss life routine! (bed early, workout in a.m., prayer, Bible reading, responsiveness & being responsible for my time)
Clean cat box 4x a week
Work out 5x a week
Eat mainly veggies (high cholesterol) -- boo!
Order return address stamps & personalized calling cards
Begin sending thoughtful notes to friends
Spiritual Goals:
Attend church at minimum -- weekly
Read Bible & do thoughtful journal writing -- daily
In Progress:
Head to John Mayer concert alone -- ticket purchased
Find one learning event & attend alone -- TBD
PS - this is all not to get a man but actually to get a life. Let's see how well I do being alone. Trust me I'm alone. My phone rings 2x a week & I get texts rarely.
Self: If you don't have someone to lean on, it may be because God already knows you don't need someone.
Continue to work full steam ahead on my career at the Firm
Compile & Review articles on Small Talk
Follow current events (including politics, television, movies etc)
Practice:
Join NJ Young Professionals & start going out!
Physical Goals:
Get on a no miss life routine! (bed early, workout in a.m., prayer, Bible reading, responsiveness & being responsible for my time)
Clean cat box 4x a week
Work out 5x a week
Eat mainly veggies (high cholesterol) -- boo!
Order return address stamps & personalized calling cards
Begin sending thoughtful notes to friends
Spiritual Goals:
Attend church at minimum -- weekly
Read Bible & do thoughtful journal writing -- daily
In Progress:
Head to John Mayer concert alone -- ticket purchased
Find one learning event & attend alone -- TBD
PS - this is all not to get a man but actually to get a life. Let's see how well I do being alone. Trust me I'm alone. My phone rings 2x a week & I get texts rarely.
Self: If you don't have someone to lean on, it may be because God already knows you don't need someone.
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