Gagging Through The Pitfalls of Dating

A new breed of agony has sprung now that I'm on a new Christian dating site. It's the agony of poking each word with a needle before threading it into an email. After countless anxiety ridden proofs you hit the send button and watch your words shoot like a meteor into someone else's inbox. After all that, the recipient vanishes after only a few responses. Am I doing something wrong? More agony ensues as I ponder my approach.

A lovely fellow red head began emailing me last week. He started off seemingly as just a friend. We're now wading in billows of emails but he hasn't asked to call me. As I spend countless minutes drafting, proofing and adding finishing touches to emails, I can't help wonder when he'll fade into oblivion like the others before him. Thus far I don't see any red flags other than the somewhat passive way in which he writes to me. He doesn't lack passion but he seems to lack full interest. Perhaps he's writing to someone he's more interested in? That's my only question. I'll give him a few more emails before I bid him adieu. Seems to me a man who can't commit to a phone call will be problematic down the line. This is, after all, an online affair.

As I close tonight’s vent, there's one thing I must remember. I mustn't spend too much time or focus too much on someone other than Christ Himself. A relationship, at any level, must not be overly consuming or distracting as to prevent my worship of Him. So I shall wait and put my love life in His ever knowing hands.